ECHOES

 

“Why do you sit in here in the dark?”

I smile at the question

Thinking back

Days, months…yes years

Seven, I think

Pacing the bridge of a ship at sea

At night

In the dark

The wings of the bridge stick way out

Long walkways on either side of the wheelhouse

Six or seven decks up

And, out on the open ocean

With a sea on

A light ship really rolls

As it goes over in the dark

At the far end of the roll

At the far end of the port wing

I would find myself staring straight down

Into the bottomless ocean

As the stars shined down from above

Gawd, I loved that

I smile before answering

“I like to be able to see out the windows.”

Echoes

Sounding through the tunnels of time

Some forever

Bare feet

Silent

On the hardwood floor

Cool night breezes

Carrying scents

Coming in the open windows

Strong dark coffee

In the dark

Looking across the room in dim light

At the ladder of pencil marks

On the faded white door frame

Echoes

Bouncing through the rooms

And around the hallow halls

Of my mind

Head tilted back

Eyes closed

Things falling away

A constant emptying process

But as quickly as I empty stuff

More shit comes in

Those pencil marks though

They are going to stay

I begin to smile

As I think of her

I have to go up and say something

I know she is waiting

Even if she is asleep

Bare feet

Silent on the hardwood floor

Cool night breezes

Coming in the open windows

Surprised - the lamp is still on

But yes – she is asleep

I love pushing her hair back out of her face

Leaning with a light kiss

“Good night,

Love you,

You are beautiful”

I smile

Reach, click off the lamp

Silently turning to rise

Before feeling my shirt

Grabbed

Then crumpled

In the middle of my back

A quiet laughing whisper

“Where do you think you are going?”

At the end of a roll

I would find myself staring straight down

Into the bottomless ocean

Gawd, I love that

Sitting back down again

Turning

Things,

All sorts of things

Falling away

Some things though

I again – needlessly

Push her hair back out of her face

Stay

Echoing

Over and over and over again

Always

And forever

Loud and clear

In the tunnels of time